Oh... Bad Things Happened... Well... Shyt Happens... :(

hi to all... first of all i'd like to inform u all that my faculty will be moving to bandar sg. long in cheras. i'll start my january 2005 semester there. so basically for this past 2 weeks i've been going back and forth to look for accommodation and me and my frenz hav decided to rent condos. so today is my 4th trip to sg. long. previously i went to look accomodation for my friends... kawan lah... katakan... so help-help lor... but i havent found accomodation for myself even!! doest that sound stupid? whatever.. so continue with my story.

today, this BK asked me to accompany her friends and her to go sg.long... apparently when we reach there i found out that they hav met an agent which offers better dealthan all agents i've met. i was so ecstatic that i hav forgoten that they ARE the one who's looking for accomodation in this trip, not me. it is like i'm competing with her to get all the houses she has seen. and i didnt realise that. i was so drunken with good deals... afterwards when in the car she voiced her disapprovals of my actions... only then i realised that what i've done has menyinggung perasaan dia.

and i'm so regretful of my actions and i kept on apologizing again and again, but none the less, what has happened has happened. no amount of apologizing or reasons my be able to change it. now i know that all my hope on her is crushed... crushed like a squished mosquito... her impression of me would've changed and thats it. game over. i'm outta the game... all bcoz of a short moment of frenzy... everything is gone now... sigh.. i am so doomed.... perhaps i shouldnt have accepted her invitation, so as to not have this things happened. sigh....

so for now i guess i'll wallow in my pool of tears and defeat for a while b4 i continue my life....