well..latest happening..! i just found out that my application to change course has been approved! but hell yeah...was feeling ecstatic initially, coz under this course, BA, chances for employment is far better than BIS... but now i'm quite worried...i can see that those BA students are studying like there's no tomorrow... pok sai lou meng ah....really study like gila... i dunno wheteher i can do it or not, but actually, this is not the main thing that is bugging me now. actually it is the Accounting Subject... yeah...i have absolutely no knowledge about accounting! zero! blank! n guess wat? some seniors that i talked to had gave me the impression that it's gonna be real, REAL.... hard for me to face it.... i'm gonna study advanced level first day....some more the lecturer will skip it very fast to move on to next level coz this are the things that he expected us to already learnt in Diploma or F6! aww...shucks...! why, i don't even know spm level accountings!!! die lar... in the first place, all i thought were just that it''s now or never...so just because of securing my future financial life, i'd rather take the plunge....hey..it's nothing.... just one accounting prob..others is just a breeze..... but then again what if i failed the one n only accounting paper? then my whole bachelor's degree will go down the drain..... if i stay with BIS, i can say that i'd surely pass with 2nd class honours (worst come to worst) coz it was easy....n then risking to fight in a saturated job market where most of your prospective employers would say..."gee...u're good in the interview...but i'm sorry to say that your bachelor's degree are mismatched with the job u tried to apply here..." or even worse, i don't even get to the interview list, coz i'm not what they want at all.... so much for the people who said that "u're studying this but that doesn't mean that u're work forever in the same field..."
sigh...i'm still worried...i'm still pointless...i dunno what to do.... i had been ponteng class since yesterday.... i tried to put some steps on how to advise other people that i usually use...but it seems like it didn't work at all... pity those ppl whom i used to advise...my solutions didn't work...hey, even when doctors are sick, they'd have to refer themselves to other doctors, rite...(self pacifying...) ok...let's see...what i wanted? i want to be employable upon graduation(which choosing BA is the correct way), not flipping burgers around the street corner... but what if i didn't even graduate (if i go to BA) ? sigh..tough choice.....aaaarrrgghhh!!!!!!
i'm getting crazy...!!!! HEEEEELLPPPPP!!!!!!!! guess i need some place to release out before i could clear my mind n make a clear decision...