Life Goes On... Yada-Yada-Yada...
hello again... i guess life goes on after all... i've never called nor talked to BK since my last blog.. whatever... now i'm feeling alot easier on myself... dont know wats the reason, but then i felt a relief... waaay... to relieved i should say, but then nothing much had bothered my mind this past 3 weeks... i lived like i'm on vacation, no classes, late nights late mornings.... no booze nor smoke btw, i dont do those.
things had gotten better between me n L, but stil there is this grudge (not the ju-on one, k?) in my heart that i shouldnt give her false hope... i tried my best to accept the situation, but there's this other side of me (conscience?) that says i did the biggest lie in the world to hurt a girl.... oh gosh... is he correct? i dunno.... however things goes on as planned... we enjoy the time we still have together, n the inescapable mutual break-up will come soon... frankly i know i would regret making this decision, but then again, i just cant see the future in this, so better be cruel than sorry...
my exam finals starts this saturday, there nothing but crap in my head... gosh, i shud've been studyying but i just cant seem to be able to bring myself to it... distractions? maybe, or perhaps it's just me... no semangat at all, or plain lazy.... whatever u name it, i'm not studying now... perhaps last sem's supp paper failed to provoke me into jumping into action? should i just fail all 5 subjects b4 i do something? bila terhantuk baru terngadah... hmm... maybe as usual i'd be the one who burn the midnite oil... every last drop of it, n hope that i can manage to drag myself to next sem without any hitches... hope... just continue hope lah... no fruit could be harvested if u planted no seed... hmm...
so last nite was merdeka eve... planned to go down to subang at 10pm to catch a concert.. heard that pete teo n jason lo are scheduled to play there... on my way back from pasar malam in ss2... something hit my mind... when there was a time i'd prefer to go anywhere alone, but nowadays, i just dont feel like going out withot any companion(s)... it just felt so cold, so boring...
plus yesterday was the 15th of the seventh lunar month in chinese calendar... ah... u know those hungry ghost festival on the 14th rite? there's this folks tale saying not to go out late 7 days before n after the hungry ghost festival.... ha...u caught me... i'm a bit superstitious though... not that i wholely believe in those craps, but then again, no harm excercising some care... after all, it's not a once in a lifetime event like Commonwealth or Olympics being held in Malaysia... well if it is, i'd go, come rain or shine....
so conclusion? i didnt go out. surfed the net, played some games, but stil not touching the books! damn! however all is not vain, struck midnite, firewors were shot out n i can see from distance that some are quite bright, anyway since my room window is not facing KL side, those fireworks i see is from amcorp mall and subang jaya (or izit sunway?) nonetheless, managed to get some photo as i had the camera in my desk, so considered as compensation oso la...
things had gotten better between me n L, but stil there is this grudge (not the ju-on one, k?) in my heart that i shouldnt give her false hope... i tried my best to accept the situation, but there's this other side of me (conscience?) that says i did the biggest lie in the world to hurt a girl.... oh gosh... is he correct? i dunno.... however things goes on as planned... we enjoy the time we still have together, n the inescapable mutual break-up will come soon... frankly i know i would regret making this decision, but then again, i just cant see the future in this, so better be cruel than sorry...
my exam finals starts this saturday, there nothing but crap in my head... gosh, i shud've been studyying but i just cant seem to be able to bring myself to it... distractions? maybe, or perhaps it's just me... no semangat at all, or plain lazy.... whatever u name it, i'm not studying now... perhaps last sem's supp paper failed to provoke me into jumping into action? should i just fail all 5 subjects b4 i do something? bila terhantuk baru terngadah... hmm... maybe as usual i'd be the one who burn the midnite oil... every last drop of it, n hope that i can manage to drag myself to next sem without any hitches... hope... just continue hope lah... no fruit could be harvested if u planted no seed... hmm...
so last nite was merdeka eve... planned to go down to subang at 10pm to catch a concert.. heard that pete teo n jason lo are scheduled to play there... on my way back from pasar malam in ss2... something hit my mind... when there was a time i'd prefer to go anywhere alone, but nowadays, i just dont feel like going out withot any companion(s)... it just felt so cold, so boring...
plus yesterday was the 15th of the seventh lunar month in chinese calendar... ah... u know those hungry ghost festival on the 14th rite? there's this folks tale saying not to go out late 7 days before n after the hungry ghost festival.... ha...u caught me... i'm a bit superstitious though... not that i wholely believe in those craps, but then again, no harm excercising some care... after all, it's not a once in a lifetime event like Commonwealth or Olympics being held in Malaysia... well if it is, i'd go, come rain or shine....
so conclusion? i didnt go out. surfed the net, played some games, but stil not touching the books! damn! however all is not vain, struck midnite, firewors were shot out n i can see from distance that some are quite bright, anyway since my room window is not facing KL side, those fireworks i see is from amcorp mall and subang jaya (or izit sunway?) nonetheless, managed to get some photo as i had the camera in my desk, so considered as compensation oso la...
btw, some weeks back i just got myself a new handphone...ermmm not exactly new, it's a 2nd hand, but nonetheless it satisfied my craving for a colour screened n polyphonic ring-toned handheld communication device. so i got it now, it's a nookie6108... why this one? initially i was going for that 6800, that can flip open a full keyboard, thats wat i wanted to buy initially, but the 2 2nd hand machine there are quite used up i can say... faded keys n little cracks...n some other, so in the end i decided to go for this one, though it cost me a hundred more, but what the heck , this one is loaded up with games, apps, ringtones (including Black eyed peas??)... so i guess it worth the downloads though, and it's not as bulky as 6800... so wat the heck...
i just got it's shell changed today... i mean the whole thing outside the goddamned phone, n it cost me rm115!!! wat to do? this is not a phone where u can just take of the cover n snap a new one in like most nookies, heck i cant even find the ciplak shell for this phone in pasar malam! however it's a lesson well paid, with the old shell, i figured out how to chg the shell myself without needing to pay a technician to do it for me, n i get a new looing phone all trhe time.... now wat i need is just some specialised tools that i CAN'T get from those taukeh hardware shops... sheesh... wat a bummer... shopped around n found out these tools doesnt come cheap. even a single six-spoke screwdriver costs rm25... man... i think i should start a business selling and changing handphone covers to recoup my money spent on this phone. it might seem hard, but hey actually it's easy, provided u have some common sense of electronics, and, the right tool for it.
well i gues i might have written a tad too much for today... my eyelids are struggling to keep open.. was trying to uplaod photos to my blog but need to install some software... and the download of this software is taking forever...stil stuck at 48%...wat a @^#!%*&!!! well, perhaps i'll upload it some other time, now i need to sleep... keep waiting or updates!
i just got it's shell changed today... i mean the whole thing outside the goddamned phone, n it cost me rm115!!! wat to do? this is not a phone where u can just take of the cover n snap a new one in like most nookies, heck i cant even find the ciplak shell for this phone in pasar malam! however it's a lesson well paid, with the old shell, i figured out how to chg the shell myself without needing to pay a technician to do it for me, n i get a new looing phone all trhe time.... now wat i need is just some specialised tools that i CAN'T get from those taukeh hardware shops... sheesh... wat a bummer... shopped around n found out these tools doesnt come cheap. even a single six-spoke screwdriver costs rm25... man... i think i should start a business selling and changing handphone covers to recoup my money spent on this phone. it might seem hard, but hey actually it's easy, provided u have some common sense of electronics, and, the right tool for it.
well i gues i might have written a tad too much for today... my eyelids are struggling to keep open.. was trying to uplaod photos to my blog but need to install some software... and the download of this software is taking forever...stil stuck at 48%...wat a @^#!%*&!!! well, perhaps i'll upload it some other time, now i need to sleep... keep waiting or updates!
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