Gosh... another dream....

I was trying the whole day not to write this in my blog, but, ah... the other self got the better of me... well... i guess i'm harping on the same issue again... what else?

this time, this morning's dream is me n EH again... sigh... i guess i'm not gonna share the details of the dream but enuf to say that in the dream i did say "why do i need any other girl when i already hav EH?" so basically u'd know what happened in my dream.

the whole day long i've been thinking bout this... why would i dream all this silly things? why am i desiring something that i clearly knew that i'd never have? though it seems wonderful n nice, wat does it trying to tell me? is it that dream is something that states my inner desire? or a reflection of reality? or even the opposite? or it means something else?

often i had given thought...
what am i doing?
what had i done?
why?
why not?
am i doing the right thing?
had i done the right thing?
is this what i want?
had i chose the correct path?
how?
what if i had done this instead of that?
what was the consequences?
how would the consequences be?

many things are confusing me... and i'm clueless to where i'm heading... all i know and am doing is just walking straight ahead....without having clear direction or objective. taking stride along the way.... would the situation be different had i done something other than what i had done?

i dont know... i'm lost....