hello again... this shall be my first post for 2005... after such a long time i did not touch this blog... previously i had thoughts of updating this site earlier, but none of the happenings really had enuf effect to push me, not until this latest news came to me... i will talk about other things as well, but i shall first talk about this news that prompted me back into writing.
for everybody who's reading this, i'd like to announce that a dear friend of mine, a very close friend when i was still in form 6, has passed away on friday morning, 28th january 2005 due to a sudden heart attack. for those who knows yin fook liang, we shall always remember him as he was, a happy go lucky and a fine person who always strive to bring happiness and meaningful care for us... but now the Lord has decided to call him back into His fold, so let's observe a moment of silence in remembrance of my friend, Yin.
many times, i've read obituaries, poems and letters addressed to the newpapers, telling us how painful it is to lose someone close to u, and everytime i have only the slightest sympathy and turn over the leaf. it's true that of a chinese saying, u wont feel the pain if the needle's not touching ur skin. all of a sudden i can feel acquainted with all the ppl who hav wrote to the press... the heart feels heavy n painful, like a string tugging at your heart relentlessly... it's just so... i dont know wat to say... feels like a part of me is gone forever. indeed... i've lost a friend. i'll never see him again... all i have is just the memories of us together a few years back... and there wont be any news from him anymore. he was rested in chears yesterday morning, but i was unable to send him off... i dont know why i dont want to go, perhaps i just cant take it... to see him off like dat. he'll always be a friend of mine. may god rest his soul and watch over him.
sigh... i did went to his funeral service the night he died... so it was some sort of school reunion... sort of... looking back all those piictures we took when we were in form6, it feels nice, but yet i cant stop thinking that that's all we have of him... we'll never have another photo chance anymore... but the pain that i had, wont be comparable to what his parents suffered... maybe i shud just stop talking bout this longer...
the nite after the funeral service, i slept, many dreams had once again occured... i cant remember much of it as i'm writing here, but only one that is still clear in my mind is... well, wat else... i've met EH during the funeral. she had grown her hair long, a contrast to wat she used to have and permed the lower half of it, the type dat i liked. she's slimmer now... i didnt talk to her other than just a greeting... i dont know why. just dont feel like talking... lets get back to my dream... in it... i dreamt of her telling me that she already has a boyfriend. i woke up right after that. i dont know if thats a premonition deja vu or it's just a crappy dream. i hope it'd be the latter. i dont know wat the heck i'm doing now, wat i feel now... just so clueless and confused... as always...
for everybody who's reading this, i'd like to announce that a dear friend of mine, a very close friend when i was still in form 6, has passed away on friday morning, 28th january 2005 due to a sudden heart attack. for those who knows yin fook liang, we shall always remember him as he was, a happy go lucky and a fine person who always strive to bring happiness and meaningful care for us... but now the Lord has decided to call him back into His fold, so let's observe a moment of silence in remembrance of my friend, Yin.
many times, i've read obituaries, poems and letters addressed to the newpapers, telling us how painful it is to lose someone close to u, and everytime i have only the slightest sympathy and turn over the leaf. it's true that of a chinese saying, u wont feel the pain if the needle's not touching ur skin. all of a sudden i can feel acquainted with all the ppl who hav wrote to the press... the heart feels heavy n painful, like a string tugging at your heart relentlessly... it's just so... i dont know wat to say... feels like a part of me is gone forever. indeed... i've lost a friend. i'll never see him again... all i have is just the memories of us together a few years back... and there wont be any news from him anymore. he was rested in chears yesterday morning, but i was unable to send him off... i dont know why i dont want to go, perhaps i just cant take it... to see him off like dat. he'll always be a friend of mine. may god rest his soul and watch over him.
sigh... i did went to his funeral service the night he died... so it was some sort of school reunion... sort of... looking back all those piictures we took when we were in form6, it feels nice, but yet i cant stop thinking that that's all we have of him... we'll never have another photo chance anymore... but the pain that i had, wont be comparable to what his parents suffered... maybe i shud just stop talking bout this longer...
the nite after the funeral service, i slept, many dreams had once again occured... i cant remember much of it as i'm writing here, but only one that is still clear in my mind is... well, wat else... i've met EH during the funeral. she had grown her hair long, a contrast to wat she used to have and permed the lower half of it, the type dat i liked. she's slimmer now... i didnt talk to her other than just a greeting... i dont know why. just dont feel like talking... lets get back to my dream... in it... i dreamt of her telling me that she already has a boyfriend. i woke up right after that. i dont know if thats a premonition deja vu or it's just a crappy dream. i hope it'd be the latter. i dont know wat the heck i'm doing now, wat i feel now... just so clueless and confused... as always...
posted by Andrew at
2:08 am
