ok...it seems like the problem has been resolved, so, whaddaya think bout part 2? pretty interesting,no? i myself were quite surprised that it happened to me, but...what the heck...i've decided not to give him a damn about it & take it as if i've never heard about this before.... well shit happens but i won't take heart much bout it...so i'm off for now...will get back when i'm much more freer...coz gotta lotsa home work to do!

it seems like i'm having trouble posting properly, so please click latest archive to read about part 2!

Part 2!

so, i've finished my class for today... well... i should've be happy... i made a group presentation in front of the class during the English for Business class. this is the only place that i could make myself shine...hahahaha....!! anyway, i did it quite well, & i'm happy i did it. but what happened next made me feel quite unhappy just now.

ok...maybe u won't quite get what i'm talking about... i'll start from the first place. i have this group mate, let's name her A. she's a repeating student from last semester. no..no... i don't have any problem with her, instead she had been quite a great help to me, particularly because she knows what to do, she could guide us all doing our assignments. but early this week, she told us all that one of her ex-coursemate, are doing a repeating too, & he's expected to join in our class. let's call this guy B. she had forewarned us not to welcome him into our project group as he is well known as a problematic person n will drag us down if we're gonna accept him. so, we had finally put him into another group, sorry for that group lah!

initially i don't care about him, it's his problem lah if he wants to repeat his studies...i'm doing mine happily, so i'd assume that we won't get into each other's path. as in cantonese proverb said,"ho sui pat fan cheng sui" (literally, river water won't get mixed up with well water...)

what happened exactly is that A had told me that during her conversation with B, he had explicitly expressed his utmost dislike to me. reason? i'm too show off during the presentation. he said he'd not give me a chance to be the star of the class as long as he's there.

of course this is what A had told me, N i'd have no reason to doubt her words as i knew A, being herself, she won't get anything if there's any conflict between me & B, N she's go no reason to do it either... we're all group mate & if i'm gonna fall, it won't augur well with the whole group, dragging her together. so, this is not her at all & i believed that what she said to me serves as a warning for me to be careful when dealing with B. furthermore, i couldn't just passed off her warning simply because personally, i, too had heard rumours from seniors that B is not an easy fella. although i couldn't verify the rumour, but if he's a good person, would anybody, in their utmost respect, would stand to tarnish his reputation?

this had made me wonder for a while... what we cantonese refers as 'siu yan' (little people: dark star who brings bad luck unto u) has really appeared in my life?
hey, i can speak english, is it an offense? i wouldn't know that somebody would hate me for it. if he thinks that he's in any way better than me, then prove it. if he feels inferior, it's his problem, just shut up, buckle up & show it during presentation or exam that he is better than me. no point going around telling people that he hates me, & justify his action by saying i'm the reason, that i'm so 'lan si' (show off)

btw, i have to make clear my position,too. being new on transfer from other course of study, i found out that i'm still not good in other subject such as Accounting, Managements & Quantitative Tecniques. English is the only place that i could actively participates.

anyway... 1 small wicked thought ran thru my mind too... if he's any good, any way better than me, would he need to repeat his studies? certainly he didn't make his grades, resulting in the uni retaining him... hahaha! but then A was quick to remind me that actually B is not a dumbo either."he's quite a smartass...easily understands what the lecturers taught when he's still in his class last semester. it's just that his laziness took its toll on him during the final..." she said. so...it seems like....i'm in for a tough challenge...not only from him, but myself too...sometimes i,myself would have this kind of feeling running in me too...overconfidence!

what i can deduce is that actually this fella is resenting his own failure... he is the star of his own class, but becoz of one wrong move, he lost it, & he's not feeling easy when there's another person like him set on becoming the star of the class. he thinks that he's the one who deserves the title. whoop...whoop.... it's good that he's realising that he's not always numero uno & sets his mind to improve himself. i'm glad i helped him in this. but i don't like it when he take this negatively & puts me as his arch nemesis while i'm still clueless... what had i done to make him so dislikes me?

so, what am i gonna do? well..i'm just gonna continue being myself....do what i can do , the best i can do! besides, looking out to his any threatening move would help me from falling into his traps too... i dont wana fail like he did....so study hard lorr... all wish me luck arr! anyway, thanx to A, too for warning me before hand so i could be better equipped when facing any trouble...

sigh...i guess this is not a big thing after all... but still it gives me some valuable lessons. #1: that what we do, although seems insignificant to ourself, may not go well with others... #2: that there's many 'siu yan' lurking around the corner, looking for a chance to step on u without yourself knowing the reason behind it! #3: that u could be friendly, but still there are people out there set to make enemy out of u!
IT'S A MAD, MAD, WORLD AFTER ALL!!!

well...things are starting to get busy now, but i'm not going to let this hinder my blog! haha! today, my blog contain 2 parts... keep on reading.

part 1!
well.... i ajak my room mate to go makan on wednesday night, told him i wana belanja them dinner... so they brought me to this makan makan place in Taman Megah. (actually i asked them to bring me since they are more knowledgable about this pj area more than me.)

that place ....the name's ming tien (literally...tomorrow) the place are quite nice, tables in open air with stalls surrounding the perimeter of that place, yellow garden lights, projected [V] channel on big screen, sounds of bird chirping n waves hitting the shore (albeit artificially, thru the speakers on the hut!) it's quite calming.

now here comes the weirdo part... this place looks eerily similar to Kampung Food Center back here in Berkeley Garden, Klang! i wonder whether it was managed n ran by the same management or a concept copy by each other, meaning, either one stole the idea of the other n did it in their respective area... but whatever lah! it doesn't really matter...what matters is the food! to be exact... the food are not quite top notch, just that it were so ...ordinary... nothing special.... so biasa... ikan bakar, nasi ayam goreng, penang foods, ipoh foods.... borring.... so just like Kampung Food Center (KFC!), the foods are nothing to boast about apart from the scenario...err...surroundings of the place. but then, we went, we ate then we blah! that's it.

after the food, initially we decided to go to bukit gasing, since i'm not sure whether i've been there b4 or not. anyway the plan was abandoned as the girls opposed to it. ok...fine by me... it's not me who suggested to go there, anyway... so we went back to the room...n that's all for a simple night out...

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let see... i have not been posting any meaningful stuff for these two days here...well...actually life has been kinda bored lately....everything's seem to be quite routine lah...why not leh...u see ar, it's just going to class.. then go home do some revision n thats it.... day in day out.... initially i had thought of that uni life would be vibrant n happening, but seems like i'm wrong...or maybe i'm just in the wrong place at the wrong time.... whatever, anyway, having restriction is good too... why not? i'd either go clubbing till dawn, waste my money playing cs.... i might be distracted, lose my goal, n for a short outing, i'd destroy my life....aww...shucks.... well i may be exaggerating, but hey...i'm an easily distracted person... whatever it is... hey i still need chilling out.. so what am i doing? yahyah...online long time from the fully packed net lab in my uni...hogging the pc, i don't care about the long line waiting out there to use 1 so that they could finish their assignments....hey... i waited for my turn too....heheh...wowsers....i had turned so insensitive towards others nowadays... nah...maybe this feeling is temporary....wait till when the lab is upgraded n there is enough pc for each n every one of us, i'll just stuck with this attitude (hah! like that would happen!) just anything... so....i've got a few fays here....hmm what should i do? well i had plans for going out with my room mate, belanja him for my last week's birthday (that is, because he IS driving!) for other friends....hhehehee... sorry lar...couldn't see u wat... just like one particular person.... outta sight, outta mind... though i'm very hopeful that she'd at least send me a msg...sigh...chance? nil! so i think i'd better get offline now... out of compassion, i'd better give my seat to some needy person out there... or the truth is, i've been sitting here since 11am & i havent get anything to eat since lunchtime...hahaha!!! *wicked laugh* ok....TEA TIME!!!!

AHAHHAHA.... woh...i've had a great laugh today.....thanx to Uncle Ho! no...TV Smith to be exact....guess u all must have heard of this fella lately...but fret not! for the uninitiated, plz go to http://www.mycen.com.my/duasen/020603_uncleho2.html n read ur hearts out! just something to bbrighten up ur day, just don't get addicted to it! see u around again!!! i've still got lotsa to read!!!

umm....what's my feeling today? uh...i'm pretty unsure leh...on 1 hand i'm supposed to be very busy....i've got lotsa assignments waiting for me to do... some more it's not nice when all ur group members are waiting for u.... dang...i hope that i could do it! sheesh.... i just felt like....lazy lah....oh ...lazy's not the proper word.... it's i dunno what to do! mwa.. fwa.. fuhfooh.. mah fuh! it's all gibberish in my mind... couldn't concentrate on what i'm doing...so online lar...lepak awhile.....then i'll get back to my work.... anyway since i've got noyhing to talk now, i'd just sign off...be back when i've got some happenings!!!

hello....! hi i'm back again, just as usual...nothing special, nothing more, nothing less.....oh wait a minute...today's the big day!
MY 21ST BIRTHDAY!!! hey hey... well....just like past years...got some friends who wished happy birthday to me. well thanx to u all...laipeng, chamchan N wailing, my two "khai" young sis, Chris & peipei, Jo....sigh...do i really need to list out all of them? i'm breathless here....anyway, u all know who u are, so, sorry for not mentioning ur names here...sorry lar.. next time i belanja makan, ok? and then some were wishing that i'd get what i'd wish for..... hmm...i'd really wanted to thank u all for this, but it seems like i didn't get it at all...all day long i had wished, & waited, this one particular person to do the same as u guys/girls...but sigh.... daytime is drawing to a close here n still there's not any sign that "person" is gonna call/msg me....perhaps "person" had already forgotten about me... sigh....what can i say or do...well...actually...being here in UTAR all alone, without friends from the past, really had given me space to do some deep thinking... i got some inkling to where i'm heading to, what i wanted to do....i didn't meant to say that u all are a nuisance, it's just that i had missed u all...missed the times when we're together... n during this period of loneliness i had been given the chance to understand my inner self.... ok...kick out that nostalgic feeling.... it's my birthday today! i should be happy n joyous! hahaha! whooh...this laugh is sooo FAKE! well whatever! just like any other years... it's just another day, really... nothing special, no occasion to celebrate it. in fact i had never truly celebrated my birthday, save for some belanja makan & 1 little tortoise some years back! (well... thx to pref. board 2000/01!) a few acquaintance here asked me why i didn't celebrate my birthday this year... all people celebrates their 21st birthday,anyway, saying it's only once in a lifetime, but to me, does it really matter? does it really mean anything? what? that your wings had fully grown & u're ready to fly away from the nest? i bet u're right! yah...u make a party & invited all your friends... which the cost are being borne by ur parents... u get to drive a car to anywhere, anytime u want, of which the money for ur petrol n spending also come from ur parents' pocket! hahaha...what a joke! so, in this asian society, we're never quite "leave the nest" actually. even if u're now a grown up adult, with a stable job, high income, a nice own house & a lovely marriage, u'd still go back once in a while to the house that u used to live some years back....hehehe... what the heck... :b
ok...off with the long talk again...so...up until now...the "person" i've been anticipating still is unheard of. sigh...i'd be better off forget about this wish! now... what am i gonna do tonite? haha...given my circumstances now, it'll be nothing... i've got no transport, save for that bicycle, to go anywhere, no money to spend & most of all...i've got no friends to celebrate it together... so... what i'm gonna do is, go celebrate by eating dinner at those rm2.30 per plate of mixed rice shop in section 17, get back to room, get a thoroughly clean & long bath, finish up my QT tutorials question n then get an early sleep tonite. nothing beats a good, long & healthy nights rest! see ya!

phew...that was last thursday during my last post....i was really troubled up....but then later at nite i went to catch a movie there in midvalley....then stayed outside until 1am to think what am i doing.... well...i was outside of the shopping complex...there's one place there which is quite spacious n windy....alot of thoughts ran thru my mind...many, many things.... but to cut a long story short....i finally decided to give it a go...2nd day into my class in this new course now....i found out that i have a terrible lot of catching up to do...but i'm confident i'm not going to be worst than the rest.... well...time's running short for me now....i'll be back when i can find some time to write again... see ya!

well..latest happening..! i just found out that my application to change course has been approved! but hell yeah...was feeling ecstatic initially, coz under this course, BA, chances for employment is far better than BIS... but now i'm quite worried...i can see that those BA students are studying like there's no tomorrow... pok sai lou meng ah....really study like gila... i dunno wheteher i can do it or not, but actually, this is not the main thing that is bugging me now. actually it is the Accounting Subject... yeah...i have absolutely no knowledge about accounting! zero! blank! n guess wat? some seniors that i talked to had gave me the impression that it's gonna be real, REAL.... hard for me to face it.... i'm gonna study advanced level first day....some more the lecturer will skip it very fast to move on to next level coz this are the things that he expected us to already learnt in Diploma or F6! aww...shucks...! why, i don't even know spm level accountings!!! die lar... in the first place, all i thought were just that it''s now or never...so just because of securing my future financial life, i'd rather take the plunge....hey..it's nothing.... just one accounting prob..others is just a breeze..... but then again what if i failed the one n only accounting paper? then my whole bachelor's degree will go down the drain..... if i stay with BIS, i can say that i'd surely pass with 2nd class honours (worst come to worst) coz it was easy....n then risking to fight in a saturated job market where most of your prospective employers would say..."gee...u're good in the interview...but i'm sorry to say that your bachelor's degree are mismatched with the job u tried to apply here..." or even worse, i don't even get to the interview list, coz i'm not what they want at all.... so much for the people who said that "u're studying this but that doesn't mean that u're work forever in the same field..."
sigh...i'm still worried...i'm still pointless...i dunno what to do.... i had been ponteng class since yesterday.... i tried to put some steps on how to advise other people that i usually use...but it seems like it didn't work at all... pity those ppl whom i used to advise...my solutions didn't work...hey, even when doctors are sick, they'd have to refer themselves to other doctors, rite...(self pacifying...) ok...let's see...what i wanted? i want to be employable upon graduation(which choosing BA is the correct way), not flipping burgers around the street corner... but what if i didn't even graduate (if i go to BA) ? sigh..tough choice.....aaaarrrgghhh!!!!!!
i'm getting crazy...!!!! HEEEEELLPPPPP!!!!!!!! guess i need some place to release out before i could clear my mind n make a clear decision...

hello....been two weeks since i started my course....ok lar.... doing business information systems...kinda like IT....with very little of business elements thrown in.... but anyway, i decided to change my course to businss admin...applied but stil dunno the outcome...
so far everything is ok lar... found a room in section 11...just within walking distance to UM Medical Centre. i dunno about other friends...heard that some moved to sect 17...not in college anymore...either way...i din took the effort to meet up with them..... just too occupied with my own stuff here... btw let me tell u bout my room mate. he's a dentistry student in UM, 4th year, from kepong. stpm 4a woh...wondered why he din ask for medicine, but obiously he loves his dentistry studies very much... kinda good fella he is. anyway....i'm gonna ride my bicycle to uni for this term...then only decide whether i shud ride motor or not. the distance is quite something...then somemore the traffic here in pj is quite crazy. i hatched a genius plan to ensure my safety during this bicycle ride. from my place i'll ride thru sect 12, to sect 14. then only to sect 13 from there....very far.....well i'd still take some short cut if the traffic permits... since it's already 1 week my class started, i got few subjects...namely Business Information Studies,(well very easy...learnt all this while i was working with Apex), Intro to IT (BOORRRRRIIINNNGGG!!!!!!!!!!! I'M LEARNING THINGS THAT I ALREADY KNEW BY HEART!) Data Comm (now this is great) Public Relations( weird...) n...Programming (aaarrgghh....i don't understand a word the lecturer said. it's C programming n he's talking C language with us! nobody understands him!) still i'm supposed to study it on my own, but i still haven't decide to buy books! sheesh...what a problem! anyway...guess this is all for now... be back when there's new things soon!