It's shopping spree today!!!!!

yup... as the title suggested... i dont know why, but seems like i'm infected again by the shopping bug today... since class ended at 2, i went on a shopping frenzy that lasted 5 hours straight!!! only now i've came back to sg long... i'm so excited i feel like telling the whole world!!! from midvalley to 1-utama, i've walked them all!!! and of course i spent lotsa money... quite a hefty amount, and it's charged onto the card... my mom is sure gonna freak out when she sees my bill at the end of the month!!!

so basically i was shopping alone... a friend of mine remarked that i should've brought someone along to help in my shopping decision, but i said what the heck, today i buy things on a whim, advice or no, it's the same!!! muahahaha!!! so wats the result? a new pair of nike shoe, 4 pair of shirts which costed me close to 200 bucks, a new belt, a new tie... had it not bcoz i maxed out the balance of my debit card, i would've bought a new pants and a set of matching cufflinks and tie pin... that last item was on a bargain sale in jusco, and dang, i really wanted to buy myself a pair of cufflinks!!! so after all this, i'm so exhausted... my feet pain like never before... and i wonder how do girls can shop for a whole day!!!!

oh yeah not to forget while i was shopping in 1-U, bumped into an old friend of mine, so we sat and chatted over a cuppa for a while... apparently he kinda guessed that something had happened between me n L even before i said anything... so in the end briefed him a little lar... and an interesting part is, how he get to know about it... so enquired around and finally he let out a tiny bit of info, but it's more than enuf for me to guess the whole thing!!!

apparently somebody wanted me dead, mowed to death actually.... and i wonder what sin i have committed to deserve such a horrible death... sigh... sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga lah, katakan....

alrite, anyway i gotta go now... been very tired, feels so tired and sleepy... hope i wont get mowed down by a big car on my way home now... till the next update, chiao!!!

man... thanks to the crappy internet access, i lost the long post i've written up!!! hate this when this happens. anyway i'll just write something that is the main reason i wrote today...

been very emotinal since last nite... why? it's the 21st of the month, the very date when me and my ex, L officially became a couple (21st June 2004) but anyway it's over now, just some sentimental and nostalgic feeling creeping all around...

i used to say "it's better to have loved and lost than to have not loved at all" now i should be telling myself that!! come to think about this, i also used to say that "when God closes a door, He opens a window..." do u know that this is an incomplete sentence? i never knew why i never finished it, but since i'm talking bout it, i'l just let u all know about the sentence ending. here we go "when God closes a door, He opens a window... and those are the door and window to the very same house..." so my friends... ponder about it and give it some food for thought.

life is beautiful, and it's even more prettier when u have someone beside u to enjoy living together. may God bless...

hi all... sorry for my sudden leaving this afternoon... wat to do, i gotta ensure that everything's ok before we can pass up that piece of junk... it's not that i dont value what we have done, all the effort we have put in, but it's just that the examiner wont give much reading over it, and by the end of the semester, it'll go to the dumps. such a waste of precious efforts...

anyway forget about this, it's over... currently i'm working on something that will definitely gives some payoff to a certain degree... yeah yeah i'm currently working my pants off in this little business venture... but looking at the way my business partners work.. i feel like i dont really contributed much.. ah, wat the heck la... i do my stuf, get paid and dats it! anyway i do enjoy the extra income, makes me much more comfortable in spending my money... no one to answer to but myself... will i make it big in this business? i dont know... it seems profitable enough for now, but i'm not good at predicting its long run... i'll let my boss worry about that.

hahaha... u guys must be wondering what the heck of business i'm doing, rite? but one thing i'll say it is NOT MultiLevelMarketing or DirectSales... boy i hate doing those... nah, all i'm revealing for now is that it's service based... NO!!! not selling arses, for god's sake!!! it's something many ppl esp fresh grads will apreciate... hehehe... will reveal more in a few months time when it's official!!

so basiccally thats how my past weeks are... hectic and crazy... in a few weeks time it'll be the end of semester... finals are coming... i wonder if i can start hitting my books now... anyway i already had my holiday plans worked out... but still subject to change should situations arise. there's a musical in bukit jalil this friday nite, i'll be there mostly... any other plans up for me? not yet for now. anyway, God bless everyone, enjoy ur life!

hi all,

i'm back again... went to watch movie yesterday... yeah, the Wednesday bargain at GSC Midvalley lor... went and watched ROBOTS... hehehe, quite a funny movie though. that would be my very first movie since the breakup... yup, u guessed it right, i watched it alone.

well... the feeling of watching it alone is kinda weird actually... hey hey, if one year ago, i dont give a damn about it... go there, watch and leave, thats it. but when i was with my ex, watching movie together has brought a whole new dimension, perspective and enjoyment...

but then yesterday, i felt a sudden emptiness... no hands to hold, no one to share foods and thoughts and talks together, no one who would laugh at the jokes in the movie... hmm... it just felt so different...

u guys might think i could've asked her out to watch movie together... after all just watching movie with a friend doesnt do any harm rite? wrong. i used to think it's alrite... until when her bf goes berserk when he gets to know that i had dinner with her. i'd better not ask her out or even seeing her anymore... she made a promise to her new guy, coupled with her bf's unreasonable paranoia... sigh, i'd better stay quiet than being the cause of their arguments... well, anyway the movie's fun to watch...

and today... geez i had one of the lousiest moment in my academic life!!! i had a presentation today... usually i can handle public speaking impromptu and easily without much trouble... but today dono why, all of a sudden i have a speaker's block... my head went blank as soon as i stepped up... all the things and words that i have been planning in the head prior to going out just cant seem to be recalled anyhow... plus for the first time in 5 years, i stuttered and have my heart pumping like nobody's business... very kancheong feeling!!! so basically i was muttering rubbish and doing some gibberish talks...

dang, wat happened to me anyway? hmmph... no idea... very jialat.... so i dont expect to have much marks for this presentation, better concentrate on getting higher marks in written assignment and finals... oops, time to go now... till the next update~~~

Hi all,

got this in the friendster bulletin a friend of mine posted up, found it very enlightening and meaningful, so i guess i should share it with you all here... read on...


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Learn to let go~

In a relationship, one of the hardest things to do is saying goodbye and letting go. It is as hard as breaking a crystal because you'll never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again.

More often than not, they who go feel not the pain of parting: it is they who stay behind that suffer, because they are left with memories of a love that was meant to be, a love that was. At the beginning and at the end of a relationship, we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone. Unfair as it may seem, but that's the way love goes. That's the drama, the bittersweet and the risk of falling in love. After all, nothing is constant but change. Everything will eventually come to its end without us knowing when, without us knowing how, without us even knowing why. And we must forget not because we want to but because we have to.

In letting go, sorrows come not as a single spy but in battalion. It seems that everywhere you go, everything you do, every song you hear, every turn of your head, every move of your body, every beat of your heart, every blink of your eye and every breath you take always reminds you of him. It's like a stab of a knife, a torture in the night. Funny how the whole world becomes depopulated when only one person is missing. Just imagine, there are billion people on earth and yet it seems you feel lonely and empty without the other.

I don't know if it's worth calling an art, but letting go entails special skills sparkled with a considerable space and time. Time heals all wounds but it takes a little push on our part. Acceptance plays a part. Not all love stories end with "...and they live happily ever after." Sometimes we have to part because of circumstances beyond our control. We have to suffer if it would mean happiness for others. We have to cry to temporarily let go of the pains. Every beginning has its end like every dawn has its dusk. It's something we can't control, something we had to live up.

It's over. He's/shes gone. But life has to go on. Goodbye doesn't always mean forever. There will always be a place and time where questions will be answered, words will be spoken, letters will be read, poems will be recited in the night, songs will be sung in harmony, love will be expressed in solitude and promises will be fulfilled.

"Somewhere. Somehow. Someday."

"Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go..."

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hmm... how bout that? well, may God bless all...

hi all,

hmm, was on the net, so better take the opportunity to update this blog as well... sigh... what the heck am i doing here on a nice friday nite/saturday morning? wat else? crashing my time searching materials for my assignments lar... things are getting much more packed now, i just wana start pulling off my hair!!!

jeez, maybe i shud've gone out just now... fyi, a few of my long-time buddies are having a b'day bash for YKH at zouk now... known these clubbing buddies since my rebellion days in ktar... yesterday asked me to come along... they say it's also to celebrate me coming back into singledom (bachelorhood ler)... yeah sure, the next thing i know i'll have a Black Label under my tab... kekeke... it's not like they dont know i'm no clubbing kaki or drinker, but frankly thanks for their heavy support too during the past few weeks... must mention them here: CKY, ADR, Eddy, YKH, Big Boss, J-C and gangs and some others, u know who u are... so this time i cant make it... assignments lar!!! but when the finals finished, that B.Sapphire will be on me! hehe just that one only....

man, next week i'm gonna have a formal presentation of case study for my International Marketing subject, and the person in charge in no other than Douglas Q!!! douglas who? u might ask, fyi he's the craziest lecturer/tutor in utar i've ever met!!! he always compare our knowledge to his, sometimes i wonder if his brains are made of computer hard disks.... he can even demand us to bring up new concepts that is not in the textbooks... even asking question how to apply it in the real world, answers from textbooks are never enough, u know, coz in textbooks normally it's already segmented, divided into topics making it more focused, but in this? when we have to figure out in real world sense, we have to consider each and every factors, to view things 720 degrees, and guess what? we only have 10 minutes per person... u try and present the whole case study in only 10 minutes... gila ka? gaa... heavy... pressure....

and now i start to wonder why did i choose to be slaving myself here instead of going out with my friends... i really shud get back in touch with the happenings around.... lol, ever since i was in relationship i really became a boring home guy... eventhough i have to admit i enjoyed it as much as my wilder days... now to me, relationship or not, means no difference at all. Life is LIFE! till the next update, guys n gals... now i hafta continue working like a dog on my assignments... sniffing for info, that is... lol...

hi all,

today i've donated my blood again!!! well this time the first aid society in my uni is having a donation drive again, so as usual, i dont see anything wrong with sharing a little bit of myself for the betterment of others... wah... sounds like i am so "wai tai" (over-generous, lol) but hey, there's nothing wrong, so why not? after all i'm always happy that i know i've helped someone... hmm, only thing left to do is to sign up to be an organ donor... hark... never given much thought bout it before but i wont be surprised if one day i decided to do so... much like when i never given much thought to be a regular blood donor... har har har....

anything else? hmm... wat shud i say..... oh yeah...

well, for all my friends here, i'd like to announce that i'm ok edi... no more sadness, no more worries... i'm just my usual self as u can see me for the past few months.. err... 2 years...hehehe... so wat i can say now is, time for fun is over and it's time for me to get back to work. first stop, my finals which will come in around one months time... must pull my CGPA back up once again or i'll have a hard time in my 3rd year!

yah yah yah... u all will surely think that i'm always yakking about this without much improvement...boo hoo hoo.... hehehe, true, i have to admit, but hey, i AM trying my best! done wat i could and leave the rest... to the hands of examiners...

been thinking wat things i can put my hands on... the feeling of wanting to get back into doing stuffs, but this time dont feel like getting to the forefront... prefer to do things backstage, without having me to show my presence... lol, i wana be insignificant but indispensable... surely it'll be great enjoying life out of the academic circle once again...

oh, by the way, for this semester i'm studying this business research subject, and apparently, my tutor-cum-supervisor is very much determined to bring my project into realisation... not gonna reveal anything for now, this idea is highly confidential! top secret! but one thing for sure, we can make some MOOLAH from it... and now, if only i can balance my time with working on this thing, completing assignments, doing presentation and studying for finals.... darn, i'm starting to wish that there's 72 hours in a day!!! hahaha...

ok then, this is all for now, but will update u all more often from now on. to the others i'll wish u all luck in all ur undertakings....

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aww... come on!!! i also need ur ppl's good luck wishes wat!!!! ok... there's anything u wana say, dont think i'm gonna put the comments section soon but u all can email me for now! remember my email!!! andrew_htf@hotmail.com! ciao!

hi all, i'm back again...

so it has been more than a week since the breakup... i hope she is having a good life now... me? well i'm getting better now, did i tell u all that i went to kl to see someone last friday? well i dont think there's any need to go into details, but shortly said, i came back feeling refreshed.

at least now i feel peaceful and i have my own sense of direction back... at least now i know what i wana do and what i should do... i feel refreshed. all i need now is time... time to do things, time to achieve goals, time to set things straight and now i can see how and where i'll be in the next 6 years. i'll be heading there, so friends, wish me luck, k? well i dont mind if u wana tag along, hey, good things are meant to be shared right? but then i'm very sure all of u may have a different goal than myself, so i also wish u all luck and happiness.

dont worry bout me anymore, k? i'm fine now, life goes on. thanks to u too jo, ur email has been very enlightening. u're truly a friend in need, indeed... wish u luck in ur Loreal e-strat challenge... ok, till the next update friends, see y'all.

hi all,
wrote this on thursday nite, but didnt get to post it coz was rushing for assignments. anyway now, pls enjoy a piece of my writing.


Hello and good day to all readers here. Tonite we are having a special edition of interview with the owner of this blog, andrew, and talks about his breakup with his gf and to know more of what andrew is having in his mind right now. Today's interview shall be titled, "The Journey Within : A Monologue". So without further ado, let's start the programme. Over here by my side is our guest for tonite, andrew. good evening andrew, how are you?

erm... do u mean how i feel now or do u mean how i feel for the past few days? if now, well, i'm calm, i'm relaxed... no suicidal thought in my mind, god forbid, hahaha.... basically i'm looking forward to getting back to enjoy doing things i used to enjoy very much. but if u are asking overall, well, it's kinda crazy, one moment i'm perfectly fine but in the next, i'd be feeling so down and wanted to just scream. anyway it's getting better now, not so frequent mood changes and i'm handling the down side quite well... it's manageable... thanks for asking.


so do u mind telling us briefly how was the times when u and ur ex were together like?

no, not at all... in fact i'm glad u asked. basically we met in June last year (2004) when we both worked together on the Orientation programme, but our feelings only bloomed after a nite's trip to the Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra. it was wonderful that nite, she wore a very nice perfume, and i'm hooked! she looked so happy, smiling away and gosh, i melts when i see a girl with happy face, especially if she's happy bcoz i made her to be! i also discovered that she has interests in the same songs as mine! well, one thing leads to another and we had become together. boy, she was really into me, and i found myself loving her more as the day passes. went thru good and bad times, sweet hours and arguments, etc etc with her and after a while i know i cant let her go. i wanted to be her only man and she as my only girl. things seems so beautiful then. so to sum it up, it was one of the few meaningful and sweet chapters in my life.


care to tell us the bad times both of u went thru?

bad times? nah, i forgot all the bad times we had prior to 2005, save for one, u cant say it's bad, because it really strengthened my affection for her. that is when we went thru a dilemma together, and i cared for her like a husband should... other than that, all i remember is some little arguments when we already are in sg long. but none of it quite prepared me for the big thing that happened weeks after that.


andrew, u have been troubling urself over stuffs that wouldnt have troubled u at all one year ago.... why r u doing this?

i feel so down, i have just lost my girl... a girl whom i loves so deeply, to whom i gave my everything, but now she just go, gone, away from me... no matter wat i do, i cant seem to be able to get her back to my side... her heart already changed... so short, just in 3 weeks and now she belonged to someone else, she gave herself to someone else... i still cant forget the good times we had together... why does she do that to me? is it that my love is not enuf for her? wat is so wrong with me? in the past, she wouldn't have minded about our religion... she said that i'm the only one for her, and she wanted no one else. that's the last word of love from her 4 weeks ago... where have i gone wrong? questions and many more questions which will never be answered. so there's nothing else i can do but to just accept the fact.


r u sure it's her u love? who knows if there's another girl waiting somewhere out there for u to come and sweep her off her feet?

yes i am, after all these times, even though just for half a year, but i've been with her through ups and downs, laughs and arguments, and everday happenings had strengthened and affirmed my love for her...whatever i've been doing all this while is all out of my love for her, but now i guess she doesnt need my love anymore... i am so tired now... previously i never felt tired when i was with her, but now i do... i am so worn out... i'm exhausted... other girls? never given much thought to them anyway, all i have in my mind then was my ex's happiness and loveliness... if u r talking about now... i dont think so as well... i'm just too tired to accept a new girl into my life.


i recalled that some time ago, early in your relationship, u wanted to part ways with her asap? do u still remember wat was the reason?

i cant remember much but i guess i'll try... first, she's not exactly the prettiest girl around... and there were many pretty girl around me that seems to be available if i make a move. but then anyway, a girl's looks does not matter much to me. i dont want my responsibility to her to be binding on me...2ndly she's not exactly a lady-like girl... she speaks loudly, without reservation, and not graceful enuf. this maybe bcoz i was influenced by ernhuei's character. some more she's a christian and i dont think my mom will approve me being with her eventhough i dont mind about religion at all, so i guess before things got really deep between us, i'd better end it.

however after that she really showed her devotion for me... i was moved and touched... never before had a girl willing to be dis much loving and devoted to me, when she asked that we extend till the end of the year, i agreed. i loved her as much as she had to me. although at times she may be demanding and i found myself in situation where i really appreciate if she's not there, but those times do pass and quickly, i found myself wanting her to be by my side once again.

now i think that all those reasons above does not seem significant at all... bcoz i have managed to changed her a little bit to a girl i love and spend my life with, my mom has softened her stand on religion of her prospective daughter-in-law, and becoz, i dont need to look at other girls when i already have her, i kinda enjoyed my responsibility for her. so even after the ending of year 2004, i found myself not being able to let her go just like dat... man, i'm truly in love with this girl!!!


now do u regret having hurt her? do u wish that u can turn back the clock and what would u have done?

yes, thats right... i couldnt agree more, now i'm wishing that she could forgive me and we can be back to wat we used to be again... turn back clock? aw... get a life... be realistic man... i made a mistake, nothing can undo it. i can only apologize and make it up to her, that is, if i'm given the chance. still, if we can turn back clock,there are many things i would've done, but then again, we cant turn back the time. thats a fact. so why bother ourselves with what-if questions? past is past, i can only look forward to the future.


wat about things she had done to u? she too, had hurt u, dont u think so?

yeah... about the fact that she lied to me, she had hugged and kissed another guy behind my back, i am really hurt... i dont know how to describe that feeling... it's a mixture of sad, cheated, anger, fury and sorry...but that was then, at the very moment of discovery... right after that, i found myself willing to forgive her, put everything behind and get back to being her love... it's just that she didnt want my forgiveness... she dont want me anymore, at all... all she wants is the other guy...


so wat do u think u'll do now?

on one hand, i really wanted her to be mine once again... if i'm given the chance, i'd be willing to do anything it takes to win her heart back... on the other hand... i know she wouldnt want me anymore bcoz, knowing her too well, she wants that guy ler... and that i should not be stagnant anymore. i should move on with life and forget the whole chapter of ever being with her. i have 2 choices here, 1. i should live my carefree days and enjoy being a single guy and continue flirting and fooling around, or 2. maybe i shud just get another girl who'll appreciate and treasure my love, time and everything else i can offer. but choice #2 is quite risky, as i'd never know whether that girl is the one i want. and then i might hurt this girl, should i found another who is better or if my ex wants to come back...


better? how would u define better?

i dont know... it's pretty much based on my feel, u know... i used to make EH as my benchmark to see if the girl is worthy of my effort, but now, after this experience with my ex, i realised it is not valid after all... with my ex, she has attracted me in ways different from other girls. i know that both of us have interests in songs, and both of us are comfortable in expressing our feelings thru songs sang by others, and sometimes the lyrics are eerily accurate in representing wat we both wanted to say... i guess after this i would include my ex's characteristics as benchmark when i judge other girls... english speaking, have same interest in songs, and understands me very well...


wouldnt that makes u even harder to find another girl who fits those criteria? are u desperate to be in a new relationship or wat?

nah... criterias are just guides, not a code that i must abide... in fact i dont even care much about my criterias when i accepted my ex... desperate to be in a new relationship? no, i dont think so, just that if my ex wants to be with me again, even though i doubt it, i'd be very happy to welcome her back... i dont think i can find a girl who's as much devoted and loving as she used to be... in fact i never met anyone like her for the first 22 years of my life! so wat makes u think i can find another one like her in the near future? i dont even think i'm ready for a new girl in my life just yet, not in this year, not anytime soon... my love for my ex are just to deep for me come back out of it anytime soon...


have u noticed any changes to urself, between pre-relationship u and the current u?

yeah... big changes... first is my weight and second, my waistline. hahaha... before, i used to think that i can live my single life without remorse. i dont care if i get married young or when i'm in my late 30s, i have always found something to occupy myself and there was no time left for relationships. after all, i have always thought, why would i want to tie myself down so quickly when i can still enjoy a few more years of freedom as a bachelor?

but that was then... after being with her, i realised that the voice inside of me is getting louder. my paternal instinct starts to stamp its mark onto me... "biological.. clock... running...." now, without her by my side, i feel so empty within. my hand feels too light for comfort when it used to have her hand to hold, and the bed feels empty and cold everynite... i missed her snores very much, missed waking up in the middle of the nite to silently look at her, kisses her forehead and her cheek and slowly whispers "i love u, honey dear" into her ears. i missed her hugs, i missed her kisses... well actually i still do wake up in the middle of the nite, every nite without fail actually, only to realise that she's not here by my side. and every time it happens, i got up and prayed, and went back to sleep again, knowing it will never come back again...

another thing that i realised is that i've changed is my increasing affinity towards religion. i used to be the anything goes type, but still holding fast to buddhism bcoz that's the religion i was born in. however today, after this relationship, thanks to her, i have this sudden urge to understand more about religion, to seek knowledge for equipping myself spiritually, to analyse and criticize, and to seek refuge in it... u can say that instead of my relationship, understanding religion has taken over the place now. i feel i'm much calmer now. everytime thoughts ran in my mind, i can control it and be at peace.


do you have anything to say for them? ur ex and her new guy?

well... there's nothing much i can say now... i hope that she will never regret whatever decision she made. deep inside, i dont want to see her sad, so i too pray that for once again my predictions of his characteristics is wrong. i want to see her happy in the future, no matter with who, and i'll pray to Lord that her prayers be answered always.


so any last words before we end this interview?

i guess not much.... anything that needs to be said has been said in this interview...i do hope we can be together again but it's just a hope, as i know she'll never want to come back to me again... in this meantime, i will live my life one step by one step, taking things as they were... i'll try looking for strength in prayers and religion... frankly this experience had opened my eyes and heart to deepen my understanding of religion... to seek, to understand and to pray more. i may have lost my love, but i may have found love in religion. to my other friends who is reading here, dont worry, i'm not gonna be a zealot or religious maniac, i'm not gonna talk religion with y'all. this is just a personal thing, just that i hope i can find peace and solace in it... i'm already starting to put this episode behind me, but i'm looking forward to a sequel in future, and perhaps a happy ending in coming. till the day the Director says so!


ok, so i guess this wraps up today's interview with andrew, "The Journey Within : A Monologue" . thank you for reading. we'll be back again should we find a need to interview him again. thank you andrew. thanks to all of u and have a good nite.

Just Three Words

There are many things that you can do to strengthen your relationships. Often the most effective thing you can do involves saying just three words.

When spoken sincerely, these statements often have the power to develop new friendships, deepen old ones and even bring healing to relationships that have sourerd.

The following three-word phrases can be tools to help develop every relationship.

1.Let me help. Good friends see a need and then try to fill it. When they see a hurt they do what they can to heal it.Without being asked, they jump in and help out.

2. I understand you. People become closer and enjoy each other more when the other person accepts and understands them. Letting your spouse know - in so many little ways - that you understand them, is one of the most powerful tools for
healing your relationship. And this can apply to any relationship.

3. I respect you. Respect is another way of showing love. Respect demonstrates that another person is a true equal. Ifyou talk to your children as if they were adults you will strengthen the bonds and become closer friends.This applies to all interpersonal relationships.

4. I miss you. Perhaps more marriages could be saved and strengthened if couples simply and sincerely said to each other "I miss you." This powerful affirmation tells partners they are wanted, needed, desired and loved. Consider how important you would feel, if you received an unexpected phone call from your spouse in the middle of your workday, just to say "I miss you."

5. Maybe you're right. This phrase is very effective in diffusing an argument. The implication when you say "maybe you're right" is the humility of admitting, "maybe I'm wrong". Let's face it. When you have an argument with someone, all you normally do is solidify theother person's point of view. They, or you, will not likely change their position and you run the risk of seriously damaging the relationship between you. Saying "maybe you're right" can open the door to explore the subject more. You may then have theopportunity to express your view in a way that is understandable to the other person.

6. Please forgive me. Many broken relationships could be restored and healed if people would admit their mistakes and ask forforgiveness. All of us are vulnerable to faults,f oibles and failures. A man should never be ashamed to own up that he has been in the wrong, which is saying,in other words, that he is wiser today than he was yesterday.

7. I thank you. Gratitude is an exquisite form of courtesy. People who enjoy the companionship of good, close friends are those who don't take daily courtesies for granted.They are quick to thank their friends for their many expressions of kindness. On the other hand, people whose circle of friends is severely constricted often do not have the attitude of gratitude.

8. Count on me. A friend is one who walks in when others walk out. Loyalty is an essential ingredient for true friendship. It is the emotional glue that bonds people. Those that are rich in their relationships tend to be steady and true friends. When troubles come, a good friend is there indicating "you can count on me."

9. I'll be there. If you have ever had to call a friend in the middle of the night, to take a sick child to hospital, or when your car has broken down some miles from home, you will know how good it feels to hear the phrase "I'll be there." Being there for another person is the greatest gift we can give. When we are truly present for other people, important things happen to them and us. We are renewed in love and friendship. We are restored emotionally and spiritually. Being there is at the very core of civility.

10. Go for it. We are all unique individuals. Don't try to get yourfriends to conform to your ideals. Support them in pursuing their interests, no matter how far out they seem to you. God has given everyone dreams, dreams that are unique to that person only. Support and encourage your friends to follow their dreams. Tell them to "go for it."

B o n u s : 11. I love you Perhaps the most important three words that you can say. Telling someone that you truly love them satisfies a person's deepest emotional needs. The need to belong, to feel appreciated and to be wanted. Your spouse,your children, your friends and you, all need to hear those three little words: I love you." Love is a choice. You can love even when the feeling is gone

Hi all,
it has been 5 days since me n L has officially broke up... and within this 5 days, it has been very hard for me... i dont know about her, maybe she'd have R's company when she feels lonely, but truth is, i had none... i didnt know for sure what she thinks of our break up, but to me it's a bitter pill to swallow... and over this 5 days, after i scrolled thru my phonebook, i realised that i have no one to turn to, to pour my heart out and cry without reservation, save for only her...

however over the course of this 5 days i had mourned this, i too, have accepted the fact that me n her are no longer together... and every time i have flashbacks on my mind on how much i've loved her and times we've spent together, i prayed to the Lord, and i found myself calmer after every prayers.... on the net i've met some nice ppl who had offered me some advice and words of consolation and hope, and they promised to to pray for me too, so that i could be strong and take it as Lord's test for me... they said wat happened to me is not as serious and painful as some of them had gone thru, but as long as i put my faith and believe in His plan for us, i shall make it thru, like wat they had done. another person said something L had said to me before too... that if we r really meant for each other, God shall preserve us. i do hope that we can be together again... that i shall be the only man for her and vice versa.

i remembered i used to be a member of this yahoo online groups where christian youths from all over malaysia gathered and make friends. joined this group after a friend sent me a link, during my form 6 period when i was still having conflict with my parents... after years of non activity from me, i re-joined & visited it again last nite and i found myself pretty much welcomed by them, again... messages of consolation came pouring in, especially one from a young pastor in sitiawan, "one shall never lose hope no matter how hard times seems to be, for the darkest hour of the nite comes right before the dawn of a new day. keep your hope alive and pray hard, for the Lord has mercy for everyone who comes to Him." a few (quite pretty girls) even wanted to know more about me,(gosh, shudn't have put my photo online) and be "friends" with me but i dont think i'm ready for other "friend"ships, i dont even think they're the one i wanted... i'm stil hoping, and praying.

as much as i had known that we're no longer lovers, i had hoped that she doesnt totally cut me off from her life... i still wanted to be a good friend to her. in life, there's not many chance to find someone who understands and knows me like she did, so if we cant be a pair of lovers now, then let us be good friends, where we can support each other in times of need. i had failed to treasure her as my girl last time, i dont wana miss the chance to treasure her as my good friend... L, if u're reading this,i'd want to apologize for the past. i'm sorry. i want u to know that u have changed a few parts of me, and dat i'm sincere, and i have been honest with u all this time, as much as i had asked from u last time. all i am doing now is looking forward to the future.

guess for now i should stop writing... i must get back to my assignments which is due tomoro. i'll be seeing someone after passing up my assignments tomoro, in KL, but there's no need for me to get into details. i'll mention it if i think it's worth mentioning in my next post. for now, it's time for me to get back into the cockpit n engage the turbo boost afterburner! (burn midnite oil la!) till my next update, see y'all!!!