Ello....haha...hmm...some friends of mine is reading this. oh...how glad i am.....well...i'll keep on writing whenever i can. thanx for the support! :```) so, latest news? ok, i received the jadual peperiksaan oredi, n my first paper will go on 9th of november. Physics paper. *sigh*..how quick time flies....it a year again...what am i doing? or should i say, what am i gonna do? still blur here but what i know is that, i'm gonna succeed. i may fail my (academic) exam but i'll never fail my life!....

so while i'm in this mood to talk now, well let me share some ambitions of mine. a long long time ago, when a kid of 8 (years old) being asked by a teacher " what do u wanna be when u grow up?" question, he is stumped....what does he wants to be? he has no idea....well...his friends happily says, "i wanna be a doctor","i wanna be an engineer","i wanna be a policemen, firemen", "i wanna be this",'"i wanna be that" but, that poor kid still dunno his answer.

fast forward into 1999. that kid was already a science stream teenage student. well...on a fateful day, his english teacher jokingly asked "alrite students....let's have a chat on what u're gonna be when u finish ur studies...". alot of thoughts ran through his mind..."well...i'm good in biology...i supposed it will be something related to life science, perhaps? well i'm not those genius type so doctor will be out. maybe a researcher, maybe a lab worker maybe a normal, down-to-earth scientist?"
but his interests is also in computer related stuff...he is fascinated by those bits n bytes, zeros n ones, albeit he's never good in physics subject. (???) "hey, this IT field has a good future...the government is promoting it...what are we going to lose in here?" he thought...so it seems this teen has made up his mind on what he wants to be in future.

after a turbulent two year period, this young man is in a crossroad once more. two years in form six had really opened his eyes on the real world, and a chance for him to reconsider his options.IT is not as beautiful as it seems (coupled with some dot-com burst...failed ventures...etc,etc), given the rise of biotech as a new field of oppoturnity, this young man, regretted his move on choosing physics as his stream in form six. or should i say, regretted his move listening to family pressure to take up form six? anyway,he is once again facing the same age-old question. whaddaya wanna be? this time he is determined....

"whatever that has happened in this few years had really been totally different from what i had in mind previously. i wanted to go straight to U after form five but i went to form six. i used to be among creme de la creme but now i am among a heap of rubbish. what hath i became unto? now after all this , i know what i wanted. i want to succeed in my life. i don't care what i'm gonna be, but i'm not going to be a pile of s**t. still, i need a goal to be my guideline, so i won't be lost. yes, i'll continue to study until i graduate with a degree, from engineering stream if possible, then work in engineering field for 6-7 years, get myself a diploma ,at least, in management or human resource management in the meantime, n then push myself into management field n the last, climb the social ladder."

this is my dream. this is my ambition. i'm not saying which engineering because engineering is wide but i'll be there.for sure.

well here, i'd like to say thanx to my friend, Kai, for it's him who had waken me up from slumberland.
n, to another friend who asked about my secret. this is my secret, but i think it is not, anymore. this is my ambition.
thanx for sharing it with me. thanx......

Hi...i'm back...yesterday was the 15th of the eight month in chinese lunar calendar. or, simply said it was the mid-autumn festival, more popularly known as the moon cake festival. so as usual, my family and i goes back to puchong to celebrate with my maternal families. this year , my paternal families also held a family gathering in puchong (my second uncle's house, not far from my maternal grandma's house) n it was all the same, every year.....so bored i was, so i asked my parents to return home earlier. so off we go by eleven...

the moon was not bright yesterday night, it's very weird to for the moon to be dim at this time of year. but we don't took much attention to the moon, anyway....everybody was tired after a long day's work to prepare the dinner. as we reaches klang we came upon a very interesting incident. after we passed the new shapadu toll (yep..the one beside ASM, the one we pays 40 cents ) we chance to saw brightly lit fires flying up high in the sky....it was such a beautiful sight..... "Those were Khong Ming's lantern" my brother remarked..."wat?" i replied. ..."yeah...those flying up high there were khong ming's lantern."

as we looked in awe those flying lanterns, one by one goes up into the sky...as we counted, there were 14 of them n it was still being continually released from somewhere in klang town centre. not long after, we stopped by the roadside in Batu Belah (near petronas station there) to enjoy the view. as we're looking into the sky, we saw a lantern burning far more brighter than most of the others. guess what? that burning lantern was not going up! instead, it drifted slowly coming down right in the direction of us! my oh my... this is my lucky day! (or so it seems) the lantern failed to take up probably because of a leak (will talk about the origin of this lantern later), so it fell down. the lantern landed not far from us, just acroos the road, 10 meteres way, n it's still burning.... i had wanted so badly to pick that lantern up as a souvenir.....but....*SIGH* my parents strongly disaproved my intention....it's so close, n yet so far....they refused me to fetch that lantern just becouse it landed among some bushes beside the road. it's not bcause of supperstition, but just because they feared of any unseen dangers lurking in the bushes (snakes, poisonous bugs...etc) aaarrgghh..... it's such a waste....i could've got that....so we went off after a while....

back home we chatted of the origin of khong ming's lantern. khong ming was a military strategist back in the time of the three kingdoms in china. as well as a strategist are, sometimes he lead a losing battle. in one of these losing battles, he was pursued by an army from another kingdom, one day, he found out that heated air rises. so, he made lanterns from light materials (paper) n sealed any openings. by doing so , the encapsulated hot air causes the lantern to rise into the sky. he released these lanterns in the night in numbers. the army pursuing him saw these 'flying lights' n thought that khong ming was using supernatural forces against them, creating fear n thus, khong ming was saved by his own intelligence.

hahhahaa.....what a fool..... but any way, as the saying goes, u're always scared of something that u can't see n do not know... this story proves this saying, hehehe. ok this is for today...be back when i got some other things to say!

well... this was supposed to be posted two days ago but there is some sort of problem when i tried to post this log, so if u manage to read this...everythings fine.read thru...
Hi...i'm back.....went to cybercafe yesterday night....yah....cannot practice self-restraint. but this time i'm not going online.just went there to practice my hands on some LAN games. study? oh, i almost forgotten about it....alrite study after i finish this first...

the main reason i write today is to talk about something that happened during my game playing time there. while halfway into my game session (i played 2 hours there) a huge commotion broke out. it almost turn into a big fight, n i really mean BIG FIGHT, had the administrator not intervened. well...the cause of the commotion? just some insults n jokes that some ppl couldn't take.

it goes like this.cheating, jokes n insults are quite common in this game (i'm playing CounterStrike that time). inthe game there are two groups of ppl playing... 1 group chinese, the other malays.In the game, the chinese were unhappy with those malays playing cheats... then they start to insult those cheaters...those insults are quite racial, mind u....so the malays responded...n insults flies...first it was a war of words.....then, it's *CRASH! BOOM! BANG!*

actually...both are at fault here.....first the chinese. (hehehe..i'm part of this group but i didn't involve myself in that problem....for what?) if they couldn't stand other ppl playing cheats, they should've just leave n play another game. why would they want to mulut gatal? second, the malays. it's fine if they don't wanna play fair, but couldn't they just admit their fault & be a bit more patient?

it's hard for me to believe that after 45 years of independece, this kinda thing still happens...even a latest report shows this kind of pattern starting to emerge among young malaysians.(i forgot the name of the report nor the institution that ran it but i read it in an academic mag not long ago) sigh....after all the hard work our government took to promote racial harmony, these youngsters still do not now what is correct & what is wrong. this racial feeling furthermore strenghtened by those claiming to be hero championing the rights of THEIR RACE. man.....what a dumbo....we are now malaysians .....how could they consider themselves to be leader if what they did is for their own good? if what they lead was just their own ppl n not the whole malaysian? shame on them. "community" leaders. we will never achieve racial harmony if we consider ourselves to be chinese, to be malays, to be indians n whatsoever. only when we consider ourselves to be true MALAYSIANS then we may live happily together. but this is what most malaysian youngsters lack of. yes i don't deny that some of us never had any racial feeling, treating others as our own but to compare the numbers, this is a job many have to work on. sigh....malaysia...u still have a very long way to go....

aaarrrgghhhh!!!!!
this is crazy! u know what? last night i spent rm20 on net access in a cybercafe.n i played from 12am till 7am.this morning. can u imagine anyone more crazy than this? first i lament for the money spent. now i lament for the time spent.helloo...i missed my sleep eh....
oh....there'll never be second time.anymore.
i'm soo...hoooah...*blink*blink*....sleepy now...
have.....to...stay.......awake.....
*boom*Zzzzzz.....ZZzzzzzz.......

well.....finally i got my self a weblog...after a year i planned to get one.... so, to all my friends who are viewing this, be happy to know that i will never forget u all...& this is my main reason i created this log. to let u all know that i'm still around, with or without me physically present. ok....so this is all for now. will be back later

testing...testing....