Monday, June 13, 2005

hi all...

it's been long since the last time i updated u guys on the latest happening in my life eh? well... many things had happened but it doesnt generate enuf interest in me to post it up here... not until the incident that happened last friday... but before i get into that incident, i might as well tell u some small small stufs lar...

basically everything is going on great between me and my gf, yennie... life is indeed very meaningful... i feel i have a sense of purpose in my life... i have someone to pour all my attention and love to... i have re-discovered religion... i am much more at peace, i have a sense of direction and i've realised that i am a much better person now... i realised that my thoughts and principles have changed yet i remain to be the same andrew that i used to be... sounds complicated? dont bother... it's just some enlightenment and liberation on my own part only... haha...

next on the news... few weks ago went to this concert organised by utar cf, had some fun... and after that event sunny, my roommate, came back showing us a photo of a girl he fancied... margaret's her name... fast forward two weeks later, they're a couple now... call it coincidence, poor man's luck, fate or just God's arrangement but finally, Sunny got a gf of his own.... we're all happy for him. but this is wat leads to the friday nite incident...

apparently the ex-bf of margaret (let call him CL for now) stil cant accept the fact that M has left him for good... he was so delusional, emotional and depressed... on last friday, he came all the way form pj to try finding M to talk things out, hoping for reconciliation... sunny was so surprised by that sudden appearance of CL, and called me for help... he's lucky i was just around the viccinity so quickly i rushed there to see, should things get out of hand...

for the whole process and happening, i find it eerily similar to what had happened to me last time... the guy's not a christian in the first place, the girl is, the girl is dumping the guy, the girl found another guy, the guy wants her but she does not... wow... save for a few differences, everything else corresponds exactly... basiccally i do have a pity feeling on this CL guy, as i can associate with his feeling and experience... i do wanted to help him, but apparently he misunderstood my attempt at helping him to reconcile... oops... no, that's not wat i tried to do... having been through the same situation myself, i know how painful it is to feel dumped all of a sudden for no apparent reason (or so it seems from his point of view)... so i wanted to help him to stand up and get out of this suffering... however after a few words... i guess this guy is way too emotional to be talked down... he may lose his mind anytime... hahaha...

he stil cant accept the fact even when M already said the word out... he only listen to what he wants to listen and discards everything else... talk about low EQ... he cant see the things as they are... well i cant blame him really, i went thru the same phase... but i didnt stay for long... i got out of it pretty fast bcoz i maintained my mind and thoughts... i found something to cling on, religion, people who supported and gave me advice of wisdom... but for him, he just refused to listen... he shut out to everything else... i really pity him... i want to help him, the way i have benefitted from the help of others... but judging from his condition, i doubt he's in the mood for counselling.

sigh... so there's nothing i can do but to pray for him to realise his futile attempts and stop clinging to something impermanent... through that incident, although it scared the shit outta him that day but he stil maintained his composure, sign of a man in the making... it had made Sunny n margaret to be even hold tight to each other... hahaha... may God bless...

next, on saturday nite i got in contact with Kai... man it's been ages since we talked, and we had exchanged news with each other till both of us ran out of credit... so it's good to once in a while contact back some of ur old friends...

also on saturday nite, i got sms from another friend of mine, telling me she had broke up with her bf... last nite she called me, she was so sad, and cried uncontrollably... nothing much i can do but to offer her words of consolation... today i saw her in campus... although she may seem ok on the outside, but i know deep inside she stil doesnt feel right... haha... past experience ma... so now i only hope she'll be better soon...

well i guess i've wrote enough here... i started to feel bored writing too long now... gotta do something else liao... that's all the update for now, till the next, chiao!

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

"Let me pray not to be sheltered from dangers but to be fearless in facing them. Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain but for the heart to conquer it. Let me not crave in anxious fear to be saved but for the patience to win my freedom" - Anonymous